It's Christmas Eve, and a week from today, the last day of ten. Crazy, right? One thing i hate about the holidays though, is the whole expectations of gift giving. Times are hard, and it makes me feel like an ass when people assume i wont like less. I think i'm getting older and more understanding, because as nice as opening presents is, i'm more looking forward to others reactions to the gifts i give and spending time with my family. But anyways, there's a week left of 2010, and i thought i'd reflect.
Back in June, when i came back from the Eclipse camp out, I went to the local Stater Brothers to buy baloons and cake for my step dad's birthday with Bonnie and Morgan, and saw first-hand how well i had it. I just spend hundreds of dollars on meaningless things that week down in LA to meet the Twilight cast, and people in front of me at the check out could hardly afford a dozen packets of Top Ramen and a three liter jug of fruit punch...And when i say hardly, i mean can't, they ended up putting back a few packages of Ramen. Speaking of feeling like and ass.. It's horrid, and i see it almost everytime i go out. Yesterday when i went to AMPM to get a drink, i saw this little six year old boy give the chasier six dollars in ones for gas, and then he proceeded to pull out a handful of change from his pocket to purchase a packet of starburst gummies. He was the sweetest little thing too, he held the door open for me and my sister, it breaks my heart. That's just a few incidents that stuck with me though, there has been plenty though, for sure. It's sad that America is so focused on helping third world countries, that's all well and good don't get me wrong, and there's people going hungry and homeless in their own backyard. Our country may be in debt, but it's 2010, i think we could manage something......such a shame.
I can't complain about my life, especially in comparison to others i see. 2010 definatly had its downs...the kind of downs that seem impossible to come back from, and definite highs. I may complain about the wrongs, but i have it good, and 2010 was a good one.
I don't have any resolutions, nor do i have any qualms on making anything. I harp about my follow through, but i wont do so. I just hope 2010 could be half as good as 2011....maybe that should be a resolution? Be open minded with life, make it the best it could be. I think i might be able to handle that.
So instead of complaining about lifes miserable moments, i'll harp about the good. I'm so thankful for my family, friends, and my life. Each one of you know what you mean to me, so i don't need to go into specifics.
Here's to 2010 for being an amazing year that i'm thankful for. Here's to making 2011 another amazing year. Here's to having many more amazing years to come. Here's to my amazing friends, family, and life. and Here's too a great holiday spending time with your family.
Tasha is the only one who reads this that i know of, but whoever reads it, Happy Holidays and a Happy New Year.
Jessy
