The End of Ten

It's Christmas Eve, and a week from today, the last day of ten. Crazy, right? One thing i hate about the holidays though, is the whole expectations of gift giving. Times are hard, and it makes me feel like an ass when people assume i wont like less. I think i'm getting older and more understanding, because as nice as opening presents is, i'm more looking forward to others reactions to the gifts i give and spending time with my family. But anyways, there's a week left of 2010, and i thought i'd reflect.

Back in June, when i came back from the Eclipse camp out, I went to the local Stater Brothers to buy baloons and cake for my step dad's birthday with Bonnie and Morgan, and saw first-hand how well i had it. I just spend hundreds of dollars on meaningless things that week down in LA to meet the Twilight cast, and people in front of me at the check out could hardly afford a dozen packets of Top Ramen and a three liter jug of fruit punch...And when i say hardly, i mean can't, they ended up putting back a few packages of Ramen. Speaking of feeling like and ass.. It's horrid, and i see it almost everytime i go out. Yesterday when i went to AMPM to get a drink, i saw this little six year old boy give the chasier six dollars in ones for gas, and then he proceeded to pull out a handful of change from his pocket to purchase a packet of starburst gummies. He was the sweetest little thing too, he held the door open for me and my sister, it breaks my heart. That's just a few incidents that stuck with me though, there has been plenty though, for sure. It's sad that America is so focused on helping third world countries, that's all well and good don't get me wrong, and there's people going hungry and homeless in their own backyard. Our country may be in debt, but it's 2010, i think we could manage something......such a shame.

I can't complain about my life, especially in comparison to others i see. 2010 definatly had its downs...the kind of downs that seem impossible to come back from, and definite highs. I may complain about the wrongs, but i have it good, and 2010 was a good one.
I don't have any resolutions, nor do i have any qualms on making anything. I harp about my follow through, but i wont do so. I just hope 2010 could be half as good as 2011....maybe that should be a resolution? Be open minded with life, make it the best it could be. I think i might be able to handle that.

So instead of complaining about lifes miserable moments, i'll harp about the good. I'm so thankful for my family, friends, and my life. Each one of you know what you mean to me, so i don't need to go into specifics.

Here's to 2010 for being an amazing year that i'm thankful for. Here's to making 2011 another amazing year. Here's to having many more amazing years to come. Here's to my amazing friends, family, and life. and Here's too a great holiday spending time with your family.

Tasha is the only one who reads this that i know of, but whoever reads it, Happy Holidays and a Happy New Year.

Jessy

Life in '10..

Sup?

It's 2am, i have to be up and ready by 7am to go to L.A...and i'm writing an entry in a blog.

It's been a year, and nothing to drastic has changed.

Except for the fact that Uncle Mike pretty much beat cancer....it will come back, it's inevitable, but he'll fight it again, because he's a tough cookie like that!

Schools still a pain, drifting is still going on, money or lack there of still causes problems, Danny's staying here for good, I met Jackson Rathbone, I made a few revelations through out the year, and i'd like to say i grew from it, as well as grew up.

Friends come and go, and i get that now...except it even. It's my fault for not putting forth a bigger effort in remaining to keep contact, but...You know.

Did i mention i met Jackson Rathbone? Because i totally did.

I also kind of met Robert Pattinson and Kristen Stewart, i just have no picture proof. Well that's kind of a lie, there is kind of proof i met KStew.

Pretty trivial in comparison to my uncle beating cancer, though, right?

I think the adding of the pictures might be more for my benefit considering the only person who really has only ever read this blog other then myself-Tasha- has already seen these already. For the creepers i doubt are reading this- why would i have creepers on an unknown blog that i don't link back to myself?- Have fun viewing.

So regards of the friends thing: i just don't care anymore. Those who are in my life, are in my life for a reason, the ones that slip away, slipped away for a reason, and i'm absolutely alright with that. Earlier this year i kind of had a melt down because i felt all lonely, basically had a pity party on my birthday, and made a revelation about friends. Long story short in a nutshell, i got kind of depressed thinking about best friends that live near me, and best friends that live far away. How ironic is that the friend your closest with lives over 300+ miles away? and the least lives down the street from you? Yeah, i know. But my mom made a really good point, telling me that each friend in my life serves there own purpose, not one friend will be the same, or have what i need in a friend, but put all my friends together, and they're all i need. So basically? Moving on and loosing friends is apart of life, and i'm glad that the friends i have are apart of my now, even if we go weeks without talking, or weeks without seeing eachother, they're here for a reason, and i'm glad. So to my Best friends, whether you live in Vegas, Flordia, 2 hours away, or down the street, thank you, i love you.

How funny is it that writing blogs are kind of therapeutic in a way? i find it hilarious.

That's it for now, and since i'm going with a twilight theme with these pictures, i might as well post my newest favorite Robert Pattinson picture- it's not new, probably a month or two old, i'm just late, or maybe my distaste of the papz blinded me from seeing this amazing pic they took.

Sooooo, It's now 3am, and i'm feeling sick. Can you get sick from lack of sleep? Because i've totally been lacking in the sleep department this week....MY BAD!

I've said my peace on what i wanted to put to rest. So i'll leave it on that note, and let Rpatz take it away....

Until next timeee.